Bob Geldof and Paula Yates with their daughters, Fifi Trixibelle and Peaches, in 1989. Photograph: Dennis Stone/Rex

Families have tragedies and bear them – or not – and we never know, because they are not famous.  Bob Geldof of Dun Laoghaire, south county Dublin, didn’t just have 15 minutes of fame in the mid 1970s as lead singer with the band “The Boomtown Rats” he re-invented himself as a fund-raiser, then as a TV producer and now as a media mogul and international activist. Now there are 3 generations of Geldof lineage and they are still famous.

This week the Geldof family is in the headlines again, because of the death of Bob’s daughter Peaches, a beautiful young woman who at 25 had already been married twice and was the mother of two children.   It is a terrible, terrible time of tragedy for the family and those close to them, and I am full of sympathy.

I met Bob Geldof only once, when I interviewed him and the band during their “In the Long Grass” tour.   I remember the occasion because Bob Geldof was one of the politest, most charming, gracious and generous people I ever talked to in a professional capacity as a journalist. It was in the City Hall in Cork and backstage there were drinks and a lavish buffet, of which Bob – and his equally well mannered band – kept inviting me to partake.   (Conversely, my mother [also a journalist] always held a wee grudge against the Irish balladeers the Clancy Brothers and Tommy Makem as, when she interviewed them backstage before a concert, they were drinking tea and whiskey and never so much as offered her a cup.)

When we met Bob and his partner Paula Yeats had one toddler daughter. I remember voicing concern that the noise levels of a Rats concert couldn’t be good for little ones. (The gig was so loud that my body reverberated for hours afterwards.)   Bob pooh-poohed the notion saying that such loud music was the family’s permanent sound-track. Conversationally, I asked when he was going to “make an honest woman” out of Paula Yeats…..a stupid euphemistic (and actually sexist) cliché of the times, meaning “are you getting married?”  He was appalled and answered “Paula IS an honest woman” and I was ashamed for being so flippant because, yes, Paula was an honest woman.

Paula Yeats was beautiful, wrote beautifully and honestly and was true to herself, even if it meant defying convention.  I remember reading a piece she wrote in a magazine (“Honey”? “19”?“Company”?) about the strange and not unexciting feeling of her boobs getting bigger (she only weighted about 7stone) and then telling Bob Geldof she was pregnant, and her apprehension that he might be angry.  He immediately sent her a bouquet of 24 red roses.  She grumbled mildly about how, owning a big house where people constantly came to stay, her days were punctuated by trips up and down stairs to the hot press (airing cupboard) with armloads of sheets and pillowcases. No matter how cool the company, somebody had to strip the linen and make up fresh beds.  She also wrote “even rock stars get piles.” Her idea of luxury was to lie in bed with a mound of newspapers and a box of violet cream chocolates.

Then Paula Yeats died, tragically, when she was coming into her own, when she had swapped pneumatic rock music for the newly discovered pleasures of Radio 4 talk radio, when her youngest daughter was barely big enough to stand on a chair and snib the lock on the front door of her home the day her Mummy was “asleep and won’t wake up.” The friend who was at the door that morning immediately rang Bob and asked that he take the little girl, Tiger Lily.   He thought she meant ‘take in’ though the friend only meant ‘come and get the girl’ but he said later that he never had to consider “not for a nano-second” but that he would adopt the child as his own.

This is the third time in his six decades – two thirds of which have been in the spotlight of fame – that Bob Geldof has lost a woman who was a part of him, a woman too young to die, a woman whose loss has left him with a gaping wound.  When he was only 10 years of age, his mother Evelyn died suddenly and unexpectedly one night of a brain heamhorrage at their home in Dun Laoghaire in 1961. She was either 41 or 44.  Almost 40 years later his ex-wife and love of his life Paula Yeats died at 41 and now his beautiful second daughter Peaches, “the wildest, funniest, cleverest, wittiest and most bonkers of all of us” is gone.

No wonder he says he is “beyond pain.”

It is spring, and in spring a young woman’s fancy turns to thoughts of love…..and sometimes, when even the sanest, most sensible, feminist, career woman’s head is turned by love, when she is swept off her feet by an avowal of same and a proposal of marriage, frothy dresses with long trains, frothy veils and flowers, fascinators and photographers, parties after parties, parties before parties, arbours with glowing lanterns, invitations with ribbons and diamonds suddenly become the order of the day. And that is all fine and dandy.

A lavish wedding extravaganza can tell a lot about a couple and denote the tenor of their relationship, their generosity and the closeness of their links with their family and wider circle for the rest of their lives but it is necessary for a marriage to succeed?

One summer day, a long time ago, I married a man in what we and both our families thought was the perfect match. From the same backgrounds, we had interests and friends in common, were social and cultural, intellectual, age and educational equals. The wedding was in the university chapel, the reception in the city’s poshest hotel. The marriage lasted 4 years because I didn’t have wings on my heels. Because he is such a wonderful person, my former husband and I are still close and loving friends, but we just couldn’t hack the proximity.

Seven years after my first marriage broke up I met someone else. He was eight years younger than I and we had nothing at all in common except that we were both interested in the media and the entertainment industry in particular and were both from Cork. I didn’t notice him for a year though we had met several times a week through our jobs.  Then one November evening, in a helicopter flying between the Kinsale gas rig and Shannon Airport, we fell in love. Seven years later, we decided to get married and as it was illegal in Ireland at the time, I – literally – bought a divorce from the Dominican Republic and Himself and I went to the United States to get married.

It was Christmas 1991 and we were staying with friends in Connecticut.   We had planned to get married in the town of Fairfield on New Year’s Eve and then all of us follow the James Taylor route up to the White Mountains, covered in snow (“…and so was the Turnpike from Stockbridge to Boston, Lord the Berkshires seemed dream-like on account of that frosting’…..”) I would wear a cream padded silk coat with gold quilting and fur trim.

The Daughter and I flew to New York, to be joined next day by Himself, who had taken the Newfoundland-Baffin Island-Toronto route (and incidentally, arrived with a purple-bruised nose having fallen on the ice curling in Iqaluit.) Before leaving I had suffered what I though was sciatica and put it down to the increased workload before an absence and the organisation and excitements leading up to the event. On the first day in Connecticut, we got all the marriage licences, legal and medical papers organized and I went to a chiropractor who prescribed bed rest, but two days later, when filling the bath, I bent down to put in the plug and my spine seemed to snap. My memory of getting back to bed from the bathroom floor is as though I were Wilma Flintstone, being pulled along the floor by Fred.  We contacted the nearest major hospital, Bridgeport, and considered my immediate admission. The Bridgeport vicinity turned out to have burned out houses, “$1,000 reward” notices on mugshots pinned to railings, loitering gangs, cruising cars blasting rap music and the hospital had armed porters, a large police presence in the Emergency Department and pools of blood on the floor.

I was frightened, I wanted my mammy. My sister in Cork rang a neurosurgeon friend who passed on the useful intel that nobody dies of a bad back. Knowing I wasn’t going to die cheered me up considerably because I had no idea what I had done to myself and the pain was akin to an unnaturally prolonged labour of childbirth…..but with no let up.  We saw a neurosurgeon on St Stephen’s Day who said I would need to stay in the US close to a month in order to have an operation and post operative care, but we decided to cancel everything and head home…..but first, we had to get married.

The wedding took place at 12 noon in our friends’ house. I wore a white sweat shirt and leggings and a pearl hairband P (Himself) had bought me down the road in a Fairfield shop. He washed my hair in a basin as I lay with my head over the side of the bed. That was the extent of the bride’s preparations and beautifications. P also went to a local jeweller, who, without question, gave him $10,000 worth of gold rings in plastic baggies to take home for my perusal, but I kept wailing “I don’t like it” so he just bought a wedding band for himself and I used a narrow gold ring I had with me to pledge our troth.

Next day we made our slow, painful way downstairs and I lay on the living room sofa for the ceremony, with P sitting beside me. There was no Googlable Internet then and few books available to trawl for inspiration, and our friends were out in the midst of their busy lives in the busiest season of the year. The groom read from his namesake to the Corinthians, The Daughter read a poem by Margaret Atwood, I read a Barrett Browning sonnet.  We were married by Pat Coffey, a nice, cheerful and interested Justice of the Peace, who said it was the strangest ceremony she had ever performed.  We cut the cake my sister had made and sent out with us, and as I was on serious painkillers, I drank a half glass of champagne through a straw, which is not the same as from a slipper while dancing.

We made another excruciating, semi-horizontal journey back upstairs, I dictated a 700 words for my weekly ‘Examiner’ newspaper column to the newly married groom who then faxed it off, and that was our wedding day.

Over the next few days, the parents of her friend in New Jersey invited The Daughter – a mere child – to spend the rest of the holiday with them in Hoboken. Our hosts in Fairfield who were going to Ireland the next week said they’d bring her back with them on the ‘plane. On December 30^th, Sally, a nurse sent out by the insurance company, rang to say that she had arrived in Connecticut from London and was on her way to collect me in an ambulance. I was slid onto a stretcher which looked like an ancient burial canoe and held onto the ropes at the side as Sally took the air out, so that it moulded rigid to my shape. It would be my bed from one continent to another over the next 14 hours, in an aeroplane and two ambulances.

Three seats had been moved at the front of the ‘plane to accommodate my little canoe and a major sniff ensued when an Aer Lingus flight attendant (ironically, the same one as had been less than sympathetic when I had asked her to fill a hot water bottle for me to ease the pain on the trip out) insisted that ‘the patient’ face the front of the ‘plane, Sally said I should face the back….so they sought the judgement of the highest powers.  “Tell the patient she can face whatever way she likes” said the Captain “and tell her that I’m her mother’s first cousin.” All the passengers entering the ‘plane gave me pitying looks as they passed by to their seats, but I smiled back….I was not going to die, I was going to have the most comfortable Atlantic crossing of them all. Captain Donoghue came down for a chat and brought P into the cockpit to view the view (those were the days my friend!)

We were met at Shannon by another ambulance and rolled into the Admissions Bay at the Regional Hospital (now the Cork University Hospital) as the light of the last day of 1991 was dawning.  When I was wheeled into my room in the neurosurgery department, P pointed to the bell on the wall. “See that?” he said “if you want anything, ring it.  I’m going home to bed.” The neurosurgeon removed what he called “a large chunk of crab meat” from my spine a couple of days later, it had wedged out of a disc and was touching nerves. The dotey nurses and domestic staff of the hospital were totally fazed by all the cards reading “Congratulations!” “As you are Married” and “A Wedding Wish for You” in lieu of “Get Well Soon” on the window sill.  The ward sister looked aghast that I had been married three days and yet had a pre-teen daughter, so we told her it was a premature baby.  P went back to work and when asked “Aren’t you supposed to be on your honeymoon?” and he told them he had brought his wife back on a stretcher, a colleague retorted “you animal!”

I was released, ambulatory, from hospital on January 6^th in time for Women’s Christmas and we all lived happily ever after.

Oh, p.s…..did I neglect to say that we’ve got married again since and have had 3 wedding parties in all, one of which was in France? Well, when divorce was finally allowed in Ireland, we realized that we’d better make everything legal on home turf. Though the tax man had accepted our marriage almost immediately despite the ban on divorce, wanting to know if we’d be taxed separately or as a couple, P and I were ‘strangers at law’ which had huge property and inheritance implications. I rang my first husband and said “c’mere, we’re after forgetting to get divorced……” He said “oh yeah, sure I’m probably getting married myself too, so we’d better go for it.” The pair of us went to court on the day appointed and were the only separating couple in the courtroom sitting together in the room….all the other husbands, the wives’ solicitors explained to the judge, were “not available because they were in jail.”

It was the day before St Valentine’s Day in Berlin and a small group of people gathered at the side entrance of the new Daimler Mercedes-Benz Distribution Headquarters. The 13 storey building, which went up over a very few months, can house 1,200 employees and a lot of very expensive motor vehicles. The street is Muhlenstrasse and at right angles, down the side of the Daimler Mercedes building runs a road which was getting a new name.

The district is Friedrichshain, on the borders of Kreuzberg, the two divided geographically by the River Spree. It is across the road from the ‘East Side Gallery’, the longest extant stretch of the old Berlin Wall, the one which is ‘decorated’ with works by a few dozen artists and thousands of defacing scribblers with the need to see their names on a historic monument. Now the two districts (incorporating a third, Treptow) are linked politically, somewhat to the chagrin of the populace. A thirty metre high steel sculpture of three human figures by US artist Jonathan Borofsky stands in the river waters. “Molecule Men” is supposed to represent how the molecules of all humans merge to create our world, but it is popularly said to denote the antipathy between the communities and every summer a Vegetable Fight takes place on the beautiful Oberbaum Bridge, with the denizens of Friedrichshain on one side and those of Kreuzberg on the other, pelting each other with soft fruit and vegetables…. tomatoes being the preferred ammunition.

Friedrichshain used to be in the old East, a place of cheap rents and factories; now gentrified, it houses the European headquarters of trendy international entertainment companies, earning itself the marketing name ‘Media Spree.’ Kreuzberg, during the city’s division, on the Western side of the Berlin Wall, has been a punk and alternative lifestyle mecca since the 1970s with the largest Turkish population in Berlin. So when it came to naming a road in their neighbourhood, the districts were vocal. Mercedes wanted to name the street bordering their spanking new building after a woman associated with the company, suggesting Bertha Benz, wife of the inventor’s partner and Baroness Mercedes Jellinek. (Friedrichshain has a policy of only naming streets after women, to attain parity of the sexes.) The largest group in the parliament district of Friedrichshain-Kreuzberg, the Green Party said thanks a whole heap (or words to that effect) “They can build their headquarters here, but it’s not our job to help with public relations management” according to the Green Party Group Chairperson Paula Reister.

Another name was put forward by the Pirate Party, that of Hungarian sculptor and artist, Edith Kiss. (The Pirate Party is a national political party, growing out of a movement against regulation of the Internet, it was founded in 2006. The Pirates support the preservation of current civil rights in telephony and on the Internet, opposing, in particular, the European data retention policies and favouring the civil right to information privacy and reforms of copyright, education, genetic patents and drug policy. The Pirate Party won its first seat on the state parliament of Berlin in 2011, but is now in decline nationally after a series of scandals and internecine struggles.) When the vote was taken at the District Parliament on the re-naming of the street in December 2012, the Green Party, the SPD and the Left voted with the Pirates in favour of their nominee.

Edith Kiss was born in Budapest in 1905 and studied art in the city. In 1944 she was deported from there to Ravensbruck Women’s concentration camp and was later moved to the Daimler Benz factory 60kms from Berlin, where, as a forced labourer, she was one of 1,000 other women making aircraft engines for the Nazis. The conditions were horrendous, but however bad, were not as terrible as those at the concentration camp. Edith Kiss survived, as did her friend Agnes Rezsone Bartha. The two women escaped a forced march and went into hiding. Edith Kiss went on to marry twice and to live and practice her art in London and Paris, where she committed suicide in l966. And so, on a cold, but not bitter, February evening, as the ubiquitous cranes lit up the darkening sky (night falls fast and early in Berlin) with just a handful of people present, the street became “Edith Kiss Strasse.” Later, a much larger number of guests faced a number of heavy security guys and young women with clipboards before being admitted entrance to the foyer of the Daimler Benz building and the opening of an exhibition of works by Edith Kiss, a double honour for the artist.

Both Edith and Agnes had vowed never to talk of their Holocaust experiences, but later Edith Kiss did a series of Ravensbruk scenes, re-creating drawings she had done in the concentration camp, which had been confiscated, and when Agnes Bartha was interviewed in 1992 for a history of Daimler-Benz, it was suggested she conquer some of her pain by telling her story to schoolchildren, which she has done ever since. At the opening of the exhibition, the 93 year old (who appeared about 70, sharp of mind and handsome of face) spoke by video link live from Budapest about Edith Kiss, the friend whom she says saved her life. The small gouaches – not much bigger than A4size – are hung on the plain white pillars of the Daimler Benz reception area, which the company wants to exploit for exhibitions of work by local artists in different mediums. There was food and drink and lots of speeches, which unfortunately, I could not understand. As I sipped my sparkling Reisling and partook of tasty morsels, as men tried to interest me in huge lumps of white painted metal on wheels with price tags in the region of €100,000-€170,000, I hesitate to admit that I “understood” the work. It was a simple, realistic illustration of some of the aspects of life, suffering, humiliation, deprivation and death in a women’s concentration camp. How could we understand it in those surroundings? Or maybe we could understand it all the better.

In the gas chamber

The Edith Kiss exhibition is open and free to the public until March 13th. There is also a cafeteria in the reception area, and as companies in Berlin are required by law to allow the general public to use their dining facilities, I suggest you avail yourself of their subsidised coffees. And if a pilgrimage to a concentration camp is not feasible when in Berlin, or you can’t bring yourself to witness the walls that enclosed such suffering, then visit Edith instead and ponder………

(source: Sebastian Heiser, Taz, December 2012)

I don’t do clothing with logos and have but two sweatshirts with messages on them.   One says “Art is Dirty Work, but Someone Has to Do it”  the other says “Lifestyles of the Poor and Unknown.”

As my lifestyle is that of the Poor and Unknown, I have never experienced walking the red carpet…..at least, not until last night, in front of a mass of straining, cheering, waving people and a dark bank of cameras. (“What did you wear Belle?”  Navy blue cord jeans,  sweater+cardigan, navy pashmina, navy and lilac lurex fingerless gloves, embroidered blue cowboy ankle boots and a big, fat black down puffa coat, with the ubiquitous nylon back-pack over one shoulder.)  It was the same carpet at the Berlinale Palast at Potsdamer Platz as Cillian Murphy, Jennifer Connelly and Mélanie Laurent had walked a few hours earlier.

Cillian Murphy, Melanie Laurent, Claudia Llosa and Jennifer Connelly at the Berlinale world premiere of “Aloft”

They had been going in, I was coming out, of their new film “Aloft, a Spain,USA,France co-production, directed by Claudia Llosa.”  All I wanted to to was get to the U Bahn and home to Himself and being Poor and Unknown I could run it, out into the anonymous city night.  The professionals have to smile and simper and show their best side, they hold in their tummies and make  slow and excruciating progress in their high high heels and dresses with no straps nor backs and long beaded trains (both in Haute Couture gowns, Jennifer Connelly in Elie Saab, Mélanie Laurent in Chanel.) The noise level is high…everyone shouting their name, ordering them to turn this way and that, people shoving paper in their faces to sign, pulling at them for selflies with the stars.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGBCwCZNW-k

When I got my ticket for “Aloft” I had no idea it was a world premiere, I just read the blurb, saw the word”Arctic” and a picture of  Cillian Murphy on a bicycle with a raptor in snow, and marked it on the programme.  It had all those elements, particularly snow, which suits me just fine.  (As for “Arctic” however…..at a small bleak airport, Murphy and Laurent were told there was a wait for their flight to “Nunavut.”  When they got onto the tarmac, their ‘plane was a tiny propellor job and they weren’t wearing enough clothes.  (SPOILER ALERT! Later, they were in a jeep on an ice road – presumably in “Nunavut” – and they stopped for some nookie and took off all their clothes. In real life, they’d probably have lasted about 7 minutes before suffering hypothermia. But hey, that’s the movies.) The night before, I’d seen the premiere of “Calvary”, which was about forgiveness and so was “Aloft” in a very different landscape.  One was under bare Ben Bulben’s Head, to where the dark side of Craggy Island parish had been transported, the other in Northern Canada (i.e. Spain, the UK and Manitoba.)  ”Aloft” is in many ways a lugubrious film, but what made me sit up in my automatically-reclining-red-velvet seat was the landscape sculptures, the swings and refuges of woven twigs and tree branches, which brought to mind my friend Peter von Tiesenhausen, a Canadian artist of high renown.  (Google Images for Peter von Tiesenhausen artist. Swoon.)  It wasn’t Peter who had done the land art for “Aloft” but it should have been.

On the way in to the Film Palast, I did not stop to take photographs of the red carpet and the grasping crowds (even bigger than when we were coming out) nor did I take any for the stars, director and producers line-up on the stage after the screening, though I was in the 5th row. It just feels embarrassing. However, I did email my daughter this morning to tell her I’d seen Cillian Murphy last night. “Cillian Murphy?” Lucy replied “The last time I saw Cillian Murphy was in Henchy’s*.”

*Henchy’s, at St. Luke’s Cross, is a very well known pub, a veritable Cork institution, favourite of poets, writers, artists, locals, wannabes and time wasters (Lucy was a local.)

Yes, it is a First World Problem, but how is one supposed to get on with one’s life when one has to book tickets for the Berlin Film Festival?

The Berlinale as it is known, is currently running in this most edgy and ordinary, well-behaved and anarchic, enormously exciting sociable city.  Now in its 64th year (older, my dears, even than CORK!) the Berlinale takes place just after Sundance, just before Dublin and ahead of Cannes. Its budget is €21m., €6.5M of which is provided by the Federal Government Committee for Culture and The Media. There are some 400 films on view from about 124 countries, with 816 films for sale in the European Marketplace. Last year, 303,077 tickets were sold and there were half a million theatre visits.

Berlin is to film what the entry which comes 2nd in the Eurovision Song Contest is to middle of the road popular music. Many a crowd-pleasing, slightly off-the-wall film has launched here, ‘foreign’ films are the order of the day, the Retrospective category throws up all kinds of old gems one never got round to seeing and the Shorts are like tasting all humankind’s desiring, her fears, her humour and the beauties of the world in a few bites. There is a Culinary category dedicated to …… food…..and then one goes out to eat.  Berlin is one of the best, most varied and most affordable cities in the world for food and everybody is always eating – and often drinking –  whether on the train platform or in the street huddled up in the blankets provided at sidewalk cafés and restaurants, in grungy clubs or outside vans and snackaramas under grimy archways.   The exterior, interior or size of a restaurant is no indicator of gastronomic quality.

Each film on the Berlinale programme is shown several times, there are venues all over the city, which is which is four times the size of Paris. One can go to three locations – Potsdamer Platz is the most popular – and queue up for a.very.long.time. to buy tickets (no block booking, so you can’t buy for pals or profit) or you can book 2 tickets per show on-line in advance, subject to little icons which invariably show red ‘X’s through them for exactly the show, date, venue and time you wanted. That is, if the programme page loads at all.   Just now, Sunday morning before going out to brunch (another Berlin institution) with friends bombarding me by text, my mind is boggled, my head is aching and I’m feeling frustrated to the point of the screaming hab-dabs…The website is down, probably through overuse.  Last year, the site got over 17million page views.

So that’s Berlin, and there are movies I want to see which I will have to forego. However, all is not lost…….next week, I go to Dublin, in the middle of the Jameson International Dublin Film Festival, which opens this Friday, 14th.  JDIFF and the Berlinale have very few showings in common – I thought there would be more – except “Calvary” (dir.John McDonagh 2013, Ireland) and “The 100 Year Old Man Who Climbed Out the Window and Disappeared”(Sweden.) “The Grand Budapest Hotel” which premiered in Berlin I can see within weeks at the CineLaudon in St Jorioz (the best cinema in the entire world) for 5e instead of 20e here.

The programme for Berlin is vast, that for Dublin much more manageable, much more accessible and frankly, I prefer the line-up for the latter.  Berlin this year has a lot of very dark films, difficult films, tense thrillers – not my faves – and sex (the full 5 hour version of “Nymphomaniac” [no thanks, I'd rather go shopping.])  This is the current trend in cinema, according to a friend, the Director of the Danish Producers Association.

So I’ll be back first thing in the morning to try the website again for tickets. I have had the coveted lanyard denoting accreditation at festivals from Banff in Alberta to Cannes and La Rochelle in France and through 4 decades in Cork but in Berlin, I scavenge for what I can get, and pay the price……that’s why it’s a First World problem.

This morning in Berlin I had to get the dressing on my poorsorearm changed (metal plate and 5 screws were removed in an operation in France last week from the wrist broken 17 months ago.) The medical practice is a five minute walk from our apartment across the Elsenbruecke over the Spree River.

A lot of heavy materials are transported through the huge city, not by road, but by barge along the curves of the meandering river.  Last week, an ice-breaker was used to forge a channel for the shipping traffic to pass through; now the intense cold is over and there are only a few stray ice floes on the dark waters, many of them carrying mussel shells where the birds have used the floes as a picnic table. The sculpture “Molecule Man” by American Jonathan Borofsky stands in the water between Elsenbruecke and Oberbaumbruecke, now known as “The Media Spree” district near the intersection of the three districts of Kreuzberg, Alt-Treptow and Friedrichshain.  The three 30 metre high figures are said to denote the rivalry between the districts, which were merged in 2001. A very beautiful double-deck bridge and one of the city’s landmarks, the Oberbaum Bridge has featured in films such as “Run Lola Run” and “The Bourne Conspiracy” and was from where Liam Neeson and his car went flying in “Unknown.”  Friedrichshain and Kreuzberg used to be divided by the Berlin Wall and the bridge is now a symbol of Berlin’s unity.

Characterised by a high number of immigrants, traditionally Kreuzberg had a strong counterculture, while the number of non-German citizens in Friedrichshain is much lower and the average age is older. Both boroughs are now dealing with the consequences of gentrification and every summer they let rip at each other with tomatoes from either side of the Oberbaume Bridge in an anarchic “vegetable fight.”

As I crossed Elsenbrucke this morning, a double coal barge was puttering along the river, and brought to mind John Mansefield’s poem “Cargoes”

“Quinquireme of Nineveh from distant Ophir,
Rowing home to haven in sunny Palestine,
With a cargo of ivory,
And apes and peacocks,
Sandalwood, cedarwood, and sweet white wine.

Stately Spanish galleon coming from the Isthmus,
Dipping through the Tropics by the palm-green shores,
With a cargo of diamonds,
Emeralds, amythysts,
Topazes, and cinnamon, and gold moidores.

Dirty British coaster with a salt-caked smoke stack,
Butting through the Channel in the mad March days,
With a cargo of Tyne coal,
Road-rails, pig-lead,
Firewood, iron-ware, and cheap tin trays.”

…..and then on to the doctor’s rooms, in a building dedicated to medical care of varying kinds, with a pharmacy on the ground floor.   This is what it looks like:

I just love Berlin.

This morning’s Facebook post:

“Lá Fhéile Bríde.  Traditionally in Ireland, the day to cut the first furrow.  Brigid was some Biddy….patron of women, farm animals, children and artists, artisans and poetry.  Along with Queen Maeve, she is one of our first feted feminists, famous most of all for getting the better of a chieftain who said she could have as much land for her building plans as her cloak would cover, so she spread out her cloak…..which continued to expand until it covered many acres….and for her hospitality. My sister, always mindful, bought this St Brigid’s Cross on the street in Cork from Travellers who had made it from rushes in the traditional way, and it arrived yesterday, just in time to protect us, our house and our crops for spring.”

There followed a veritable salon of discussion from friends – from the Saint’s namesakes, artists and poets and writers and a reference to Irish Girl Guides leaders in Crumlin Childrens’ Hospital teaching young patients to make St Brigid’s Crosses with straws in lieu of reeds – and several relating to the dreadful weather many of you are experiencing. (In the French Alps we are in cold and calm with blue skies) but Serbia is deep, deep in snow, parts of Britain are inundated, there are red alert warnings again tonight for 11 departments in France – particularly the very badly hit west coast and especially Finistere. Rome and Florence are under water….and Sochi is green.

If the sea is raging where you are tonight, while it is still her feast day,  you might try invoking Brigid’s assistance. Calling on the sea not to break its bounds is an important part of this this ritual, the recipe for which I found on a site by  a Danielle Ní Dhighe (who demands the drag along rights) and © 1997.  Don’t know if Danielle made it up herself, or if it is part of an ancient Imbolg ritual…… If you want to bring it up to date and make it sound less flakey,  substitute “porridge” for “oats” “glass” for “chalice or drinking horn” “saucepan” for “cauldron”.
Materials: Cloths, ale, oats, bread, milk, a chalice or drinking horn, several bowls or cauldrons, three candles, salt water, a cooking cauldron or stove.
Before the ritual, you might want to go outside and look about, calling those who would attend the ceremony with you in frith [sic: faith?] and heartfelt friendship with the Gods.
Say: “Come those who wish to come; stay those who wish to stay; and fare those who wish to fare.”
Begin the ritual by invoking the Three Realms.
Sprinkle salt water around the ritual area and ask that the Sea not burst its bounds.
Turn to face the world and ask that the Land not open to swallow you.
Light incense and ask that the Sky not fall upon you.
Say: “Now I’m lighting Sacred Fire” and light three candles.
Say: “Land Spirits, draw close and hallow and hold this hall. What we have been given we have prepared and return to you. Accept our offerings this night.” Pour milk into a cauldron or bowl.
Say: “Ancestors, Fathers and Mothers of us all, draw close and hallow and hold this hall. What we have been given we have prepared and return to you. Accept our offerings this night.” Place the bread on the altar.
Say: “Tonight we prepare for the visitation of Bríde. She comes tonight to bring us tidings for the rest of this year. We are gathered here to honor the Goddess of Poetry, Healing, and Smithcraft. She is daughter of the Dagda, guardian of our hearth and home, an inspiration to poets and a healing Goddess who hangs Her cloak on the rays of the sun.”
Start a flame beneath the cooking cauldron. If you’re cooking the oats on the stove, light a candle instead.
Say: “As I kindle the flame upon my hearth, I pray that the flame of Bríde may burn in my soul, and the souls of all I meet. I pray that no envy and malice, no hatred or fear, may smother the flame. I pray that indifference and apathy, comtempt and pride, may not pour like cold water on the flame. Instead, may the spark of Bríde light the love in my soul, that it may burn brightly through the day. And may I warm those that are lonely, whose hearts are cold and lifeless, so that all may know the comfort of Bríde’s love.”
Boil the oats in the cooking cauldron or on the stove. When finished, say: “Bríde, come to visit us, to inspire us, to heal us, to prosper us, to bless us with good luck. We offer these humble oats to you.” Pour the oats into a bowl or cauldron.
Pour the ale into a chalice or drinking horn. Say: “May this ale be filled with the brightest blessings of Bríde.”
Drink from the chalice. Pour the excess into a cauldron and lightly sprinkle it over everyone present with a branch.
Place the bread, milk, oats, and leftover ale outdoors, somewhere appropriate for offerings.
Tie the cloths from a pole or a tree overnight. In the morning, untie them and use them as you will, for they have been blessed by Bríde.

Hello, I’m back. I’m not presuming you missed me, but in a way, I missed me. Remember the old buses, which had an open platform where the conductor stood and a pole to grip as you boarded or alighted?  In the past while my world has been moving very fast, and I have been running to catch up with it. I feel as though I am chasing an open-backed bus, hanging on to the pole in order to stay on at all. This fast-moving world, with its limited attention span only allows for pictograms, text-speak or captions (BBBRRR!! to denote cold weather) or Facebook LOLs. I have succumbed to the latter, but feeling diluted, am returning to more considered considerations.

That last paragraph is all about the first person singular. How boring. That is one of the reasons this singular person is returning to the Bloggosphere; there is so much wonderfully interesting stuff out there, outside of the Id and Ego, which, as a writer, one positively aches to share. Let me begin by re-posting one of the first pieces I wrote here a couple of years ago, which got lost in the WordPress jungle. It is not by bread alone we live, but by Fascinating Articles.

When travelling on the Cork-Dublin train to visit her sisters in Dublin or journalistic colleagues at the Irish Press office on Burgh Quay, my mother would catch up with reading newspapers, particularly the features-rich British Sundays. She was known to accost strangers seated near her on the train, regardless of age or gender, pushing a folded paper across the table and pronouncing “Fascinating article, you should read it.”  When her fellow passenger cast an eye across the page, nodded and resumed looking out the window, she would stab the headline with her forefinger and say “No, you must read it now!”

pic: Peter Morrison AP Photos

Some time ago in Dubai, Himself bought me a pair of diamond earrings.  Simple studs which – like the eyes of the Yellow Rose of Texas ‘sparkled like the dew,’ I put ‘em on and hardly wore any others for the past 15 years.  However, at the start of the summer, preparing to swim in our French Alpine lake, the Mediterranean and the North Atlantic off the Canadian Maritimes and Maine, I decided to put the ubiquitous sparklers away and enjoy the big, colourful fun jewellery of the season.

En route between bathroom and bedroom when I was on my way out somewhere, the diamond earrings got put on top of an upstairs landing bookcase.  I thought I heard a pin drop and felt it was an earring falling on the floor, but a rudimentary scan and a hand scooped under the bookcase dredged up nothing but the usual flotsam, jetsam and general detritus that finds its way around the feet of furniture.  I checked the jewellery box and saw a twinkle, so I ran out the door and forgot about the studs.

Time passed, summer scorched, visitors came and went, many a time and oft I traipsed past the bookcase carrying cases for holiday trips; half-finished coffee cups made rings on its surface.  I (semi) regularly vacuumed and steam-cleaned the upstairs floors, dusted the bookcase, even measured it for possible remodelling.   Meanwhile, I was wearing all kinds of everything in my three earlobe piercings; steel, brass and base metal, enamel, Bakelite, plastic, silver and gold, turquoise and aquamarine, emeralds and moonstones, jade and jasper, garnet, lapis, opal, coral, quartz and tigers-eye, sea glass and sapphire and caribou antler, jet and pearl. Then one day recently, I got a kinda hankering for the classy ease of the diamonds.

There was only one stud in the box.

In the past weeks I have pondered this, felt a bit désole but mostly cross with myself for not keeping my resolve always to check the innards of the Dyson’s cylinder before binning its contents, always to heed when I hear over the vacuum’s whoosh, a little ‘ping’ hit the sides of the dust bowl.  I sighed for lost possessions, but mostly for fear of telling Himself I’d lost a diamond. I even pondered a sneaky dishonest cowardly plan to get a zircon fitted in a similar gold claw setting by my friendly Orchard Road jeweller the next time we’re in Singapore. I said nothing to no one and suffered the gnaw.

Yesterday on the announcement that Alice Munro had won the Nobel Prize for Literature,   Daughter Lucy wrote that she was going to renew her acquaintance with the Laureate’s works. As I have many books written by women called Alice….Walker, Hoffman, Munro and Toklas…..and tend to mix them up (I’m thinking of re-naming our local reading group ‘ABC – the Alzheimers Book Club’) I went to find what Munros I owned. I pulled out ‘The Beggar’s Maid’, ‘Lives of Girls and Women’ ‘The Love of a Good Woman’ and ‘Open Secrets’ and in clearing the space, the tops of the tomes on the shelf below were revealed.  There, its post snugly held by the hard-bound pages of Jocasta Innes’ “Trade Secrets” – a book on decorative paint finishes – subtly shone a little pin point of light.

Thank you Alice Munro, thank you Lucy, for finding my tiny faceted metastable allotrope of carbon. Because of you, I am freed from a (First World) sense of loss, guilt and regret and am restored to my quotidian state of ataraxia.